Wednesday, December 12, 2012

RESOLVING - RESOLVED:

Wednesday's used to be wordless.  They used to be filled with wisdom - without saying a damn word.  Well, how about this: how about we speak our minds, show our souls, & say what's up?
Today is 12.12.12, & man does that look weird to type out!  We're about to say goodbye to 2012, we're about to spend some of the most fun holidays with the people we love, & we're about to say fuck you Mayans, & have a party.  Yeah, that's happening.  So, what better day than today to tell you all what's going on in life, in love, in the world of Cal.
Lately I've been going nuts on Pinterest & Tumblr - aching for summer, swooning for my summer bod, becoming overly excited about the idea of embracing everything I have.  Being fully grateful for what California gives me.  For having the life I have.  The awesome boyfriend, the cute pups, the good family, friends, life.  So yeah, if you don't follow me on either of those, I suggest you do so ...I'm a repin/repost freak!
Let me share some of my resolutions for the new year.  Some of these are just for keeping up with, or continuing - some are new:
Continue gymming it up, & sing "Forever Young."
School.  Do it.  Get your classes in, & conquer them!
Try a green juice fast.  Then try it again.
Learn to love better.  (It's not that I'm bad at this, but being on my own will help me perfect my skillzzz.)
Start hiking on the weekends again!
Buy less, simplify, spend less, enjoy more.
Get my abs back!
Draw, paint, make, design.  Create.
Host the very first Boardwalk To Eden art show.
Walk more.  If we get this place in downtown Redlands we'll be able to walk pretty much everywhere except to work!
DO NOT CUT HAIR!!


& all around just play more.
Happy 12.12.12 folks!


Tuesday, December 4, 2012

FACING FEARS:


Strength is relative.  New things are often scary, especially when they're not (yet) certain.  Going back to school, finding a house to call a home, new love, new puppies.  Okay, new puppies might not be that scary, but new love sure as hell is.  The idea of opening yourself up to a possible heart break, once again.

At some point you have to face your fears.

In June I met Jonathan at a punk show at this local dive bar in Riverside.  The instant attraction was both awesome & scary as shit.  It's not like I haven't been here & there in relationships; should I try again?  Of course I should, right?  Why the hell not, when there's the possibility of something great, something amazing?  So, I went for it, & so far - it's worked.  I'm pretty damn sure that it'll stay this way, too.  

School - man, what can I say about school?  Education is important to me.  Even if my BIG DREAM doesn't require schooling of any sorts, it definitely doesn't hurt it, either.  Also, just the idea of learning is one of my favorites.  Give me all of the knowledge!  But then there's that whole "pick a major & stick to it" thing. Wow, is this really as hard for me as relationships are?  Yep, I guess I might just be the most indecisive person on this earth.  Dabble, much?  Last Fall, I went for it.  Not knowing exactly what I'd be majoring in or how long it'd take me to get to the majors courses, I set out for at least getting my transfer credits so that I can get to a University once the time comes.  & it'll be here soon enough.  & I know exactly what it is I'm supposed to do.  I'm supposed to save the world, duh.  So, we'll see how this goes.  

The point is, I'm doing it.  I'm back at school, trying to get the best grades I can.  I'm in a very awesome relationship, putting all I can into making it a rad adventure & a pure love story.  & with that, there's the issue of living ... together.

Yes, we have puppies that I'd say are "ours."  Not just mine, & just his - these two pups are brothers, okay?!  When they're together, they're at their best.  & by best, I mean ridiculously happy, playful, & down right tiring.  They deserve to live together.  & in all the same ways listed before, so do we (Jonathan & I).  Now, things might happen, & that "might" is scarier than all hell.  But there is no reason, I'd say no excuse, for me to hold back.  To not get excited about things because of the possibility of them not working out.  If there's one thing I know, it's this:  everything will work out for the best, the way it should be.  & if that isn't reason enough to just jump right into life, I don't know what is.

Be brave.  Be bold.  Be everything you've ever wanted to be.  Fail.  Try again.  Whatever you do, go for your dreams (even the BIG DREAM), & never ever give up!